The New Years Resolution I Actually Kept
I've always been a repeat New Years resolution offender. I'd say I'm going to start running, or I'm going to get straight A's, or I'm going to learn a new language.
But this year, I made a resolution that I didn't share with anyone.
It was between me and my creator.
I was done putting myself down and I was done ignoring the truths God has always had for me. I was done self loathing and I was ready to love myself.
I started out eager, too eager actually. I told myself I was going to go a week without putting myself down. Boy, was that a joke. I didn't even make it a day. So instead of putting myself down for how my right eye is smaller than my left or how my arms have an extra jiggle or two to them, or for that number on the scale, I was now putting myself down for doing just that, putting myself down.
So I changed my game plan. I started telling myself (and the world) that I'm learning to love myself every day. I quickly learned that this is hard work and it's like trying to learn something you've never seen done before. But it's also very telling.
I've learned a lot about myself, my silly brain that aims for perfection, everyone around me, and especially the God who made me.
I've learned that it actually is possible to love yourself in a healthy and godly way.
I've learned that the number on the scale is completely healthy, that the extra jiggle in my arms isn't going to kill me, and that my eyes are perfectly imperfect.
I've learned that positive self talk is really just complimenting God's handiwork and that He actually WANTS me to see myself like He does.
I've learned that it's okay to have days where I tell Him that I don't like this and I don't like that, but at the end of the day I'm reminded that my identity and my beauty is found in Him alone. Not in the ridiculous measurements of perfection, not in the eyes of my family, friends, or even fiancé, but in Him.
That has been the most prominent thing I've learned in the past 11 months.
God has helped me stick to a resolution and it's been amazing.
So I'd just like to say, don't be your own bully. We live in a world full of harsh words and unrealistic expectations where it's hard enough to remember our worth.
Keep your eyes on Him and keep your heart earnestly open to what HE thinks of you.
Oh, and I also learned that this is a goal that I will never be able to fully reach. And that's okay.
But this year, I made a resolution that I didn't share with anyone.
It was between me and my creator.
I was done putting myself down and I was done ignoring the truths God has always had for me. I was done self loathing and I was ready to love myself.
I started out eager, too eager actually. I told myself I was going to go a week without putting myself down. Boy, was that a joke. I didn't even make it a day. So instead of putting myself down for how my right eye is smaller than my left or how my arms have an extra jiggle or two to them, or for that number on the scale, I was now putting myself down for doing just that, putting myself down.
So I changed my game plan. I started telling myself (and the world) that I'm learning to love myself every day. I quickly learned that this is hard work and it's like trying to learn something you've never seen done before. But it's also very telling.
I've learned a lot about myself, my silly brain that aims for perfection, everyone around me, and especially the God who made me.
I've learned that it actually is possible to love yourself in a healthy and godly way.
I've learned that the number on the scale is completely healthy, that the extra jiggle in my arms isn't going to kill me, and that my eyes are perfectly imperfect.
I've learned that positive self talk is really just complimenting God's handiwork and that He actually WANTS me to see myself like He does.
I've learned that it's okay to have days where I tell Him that I don't like this and I don't like that, but at the end of the day I'm reminded that my identity and my beauty is found in Him alone. Not in the ridiculous measurements of perfection, not in the eyes of my family, friends, or even fiancé, but in Him.
That has been the most prominent thing I've learned in the past 11 months.
God has helped me stick to a resolution and it's been amazing.
So I'd just like to say, don't be your own bully. We live in a world full of harsh words and unrealistic expectations where it's hard enough to remember our worth.
Keep your eyes on Him and keep your heart earnestly open to what HE thinks of you.
Oh, and I also learned that this is a goal that I will never be able to fully reach. And that's okay.
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