Trust

 

I've been trying to unjumble all my very jumbled thoughts and unfortunately I haven't made it very far with that. But I will say the struggles and trials we've gone through continue to change my perspective and my love. 

I've been thinking a lot about Him and how things in life work. Why I can't fix everything, why people have to go through such suffering, and why He allows it. 


I'll tell you I don't really know. But what I do know is God is a good good Father. He loves passionately and He hurts deeply for us. He understands what we feel like no one can. And that answer is good enough for me. He has a plan so intricate and so perfect that we have to let go of our scripts and our ideas of what should happen and just trust. 
And Boy, is that word easier said than done. Trust. Just saying it can be difficult cause it feels so much more fitting to add a "but" right after. To try and fix it with what our 3 pound brains find to be the best answer. But I've learned that word and that word alone provides a peace and a comfort and a huge relief. 


My God is so much bigger than what I'm going through, what my family is going through, and what you might be going through.


He's taught me a lot. He's shown me that having a big heart can hurt really bad. And He's also taught me that it's completely worth it. So I'd encourage you to ask how someone how they're doing and actually care about their answer, and to smile when you don't feel like smiling, and to have an open mind and love with a deep love because you never know what people are going through. 


I'm thankful for what He has all figured out and I pray I'll get better at trusting Him. The Lord has me in the palm of His mighty hand and there's no place I'd rather be.