TWENTY-FIVE

 

Year 24 was. a. year. It was a year of dreaming big and trusting hard. It was filled with counseling sessions chalk full of hard work and a TON of emotion. It was filled with continual moments of acceptance of my medical condition and prayers full of cries, dreams, and “I know You have a plan, but I’m scared”’s. But then, God showed up. He always does. 

It’s been a year where my faith was deepened, my  trust was strengthened, and my love and understanding for the Lord has grown each and every day. I’m in awe of Him. He is a HUGE God who knows your heart, anxieties, and desires and He has a plan bigger and greater than you can ever dream up. 

If I could tell myself something a year ago today, it would be to remember that our God is BIG. bigger than my fears, bigger than my dreams, bigger than my anxieties, and big enough to figure out a situation that doesn’t seem figure-outable. He WILL show up, just trust Him. 

I’ve had so many conversations with friends about Faith and how do I believe in a God I can’t see. The thing is, I believe in a God that I CAN see. I see Him in my fears and in the impossible situations that He finds the most perfect solution to. I see Him in the simple moments where you can’t explain it, you just can feel His love. I see His hand in everything in my life. I serve a Great God who LOVES ME and that is the greatest gift I will ever receive. 

There are so many testimony’s in my life that I hold so close to my heart in the moments of fear, frustration, and doubt. But if my 24th year of life has taught me anything it is that in those same dark moments, God is there and He has a plan that our puny little human brains can’t dream up. 

I truly have never been more excited for a year in my life and I couldn’t be more thankful to have the best husband and biggest God by my side. 

Here’s to twenty-five!