Some last minute thoughts

 

I knew it would be fun to share about our baby girl, but my goodness, I feel so stinkin much!

I feel such an overwhelming amount of gratitude and excitement and joy and so so much love.

I think that's why I feel so alive since finding out our dark season of infertility came to such an abrupt stop. A weird, confusing, startling, incredible transition. Full of SO much love, a fair amount of fear, and a bit of guilt.

The why me? Why us? Quickly became a different why me and why us. Sometimes I still ask that question, but I quickly follow it up with "but thank you, Lord".

I feel everything so much more intensely since getting pregnant. Food tastes better, laughs are more gut busting, joy is stronger, sadness may be too when it shows up, but I will so take it. It's just magic.

And when you find out whether your baby is a boy or a girl?

Magic.

Knowing your baby is rapidly growing inside you.

Knowing your baby is half you and half the person you love

most.

Seeing your baby. Baby girl had the hiccups last time we saw her and was moving like a tiny dancer.

It's magic. It's a miracle.

It is the hugest miracle and it blows my mind to think anyone could think any baby is anything other than just that, a complete and utter miracle.

And we finally got our miracle. Have I mentioned we can't wait to meet her? Ugh, just so in love.

On a final note: Jordan just turned to me and said, "I'm going to quote my favorite wife..."I'm just so happy."

God is so good.